Katie's

Today has been very weird. Today, about five years ago my grandfather died. I usually don't think about him, and I've never really remembered him on this day. I took things for granted when I was young, but doesn't everyone? I thought he would be around forever. And now that I think back, I really don't have that many memories of him. I can see him in my mind, his face. But everything else, is kind of a huge blur. I wish I could just have one solid memory of him saying something, you know? I hate not being in a good mood. This whole week has been bad. I hate this feeling, it's not good. I need to get rid of it.
I feel like I should go visit him, give him a flower or something. But there's too much snow, so I will do that during the summer. Bring one for my uncle aswell. I'm doing the MS walk again this year, the suffering he went through just isn't fair. I don't wish that on anyone.
This is kind of depressing but this is a journal. You can read or not. The end.

so i haven't made an entry in a very very very long time.
things are going pretty good! i must say.
mun is not treating me that bad. made some new friends, came closer friends with old ones so everything is swell.
my first term ended very well also.
i'm thinking that i might do a math major? but i'm not 100% sure yet. so we'll see.
right now i am very far behind. not the greatest start to the term. i have a mid-term on monday, math assignment due on monday, an english paper due tuesday and also a chemistry assignment. do you think i've started these things yet? no i haven't.
since i'm not going to the party tonight, which i wish i was going to but i have no ride, i am going to start all that work. which is for the best really! i wouldn't be able to get it all done tomorrow.
i worked today from 1-4 at the rink. and i finished my book! "the lovely bones", such a good book! that's two books i've finished since mid-january. it used to take me a month to finish one chapter, but readong is actually pretty fun now. i guess i'm growing up?
i'm going to make this little mini pizza things that are like bagel bites for supper. and have some left-over turkey dinner. sounds good eh? so i'm off. byes!

NINE Places I’ve Visted:
1. Toronto
2. Halifax
3. Canso
4. Ottawa
5. Sackville
6. Fredericton
7. Charlottetown
8. Goose-Bay
9. Antigonish

EIGHT Things I Want To Do Before I Die:
1.See a broadway show.
2.Fall in love
3.Get married
4.Move to the mainland
5.Visit NYC
6.Own a dog
7.Visit England
8.Someone to tell me they love me. Truly

SEVEN Ways To Win My Heart:
1.Be yourself
2.Have a sense of humour
3.Honesty
4.Some romance
5.Suprises
6.Always be there for me when i need someone.
7.Listen to my side of the story.

SIX Things I Believe In:
1.Love
2.Actions speak louder than words
3.Honesty
4.Family
5.Friendship
6.Make your own decisions.

FIVE Things I Am Afraid Of:
1.Small Spaces
2.Spiders
3.Broken Hearts
4.Losing my family
5.Being alone

FOUR Of My Favorite Items In My Bedroom:
1. Bed
2. CD Player
3. Pictures on my wall
4. Chris the moose from my brother

THREE Things I Do Everyday:
1. Eat
2. Smile
3. Sleep


TWO Things I Am Trying Not To Do Right Now:
1.Work
2.Think

ONE Person I Want To See Right Now:
1. My brother


Well that was interesting.
snow storm tonight? another interesting topic.
the parents are leaving next week. one week by myself in this house. except for going to my nan's to sleep because apparently it's 'dangerous' around here. but o well. i can live with that.
it's kind of funny the way people can be. they don't want certain things talked about because they themselves can't have it. if they only tried they could have it too. if only.
"why do we follow leaders who never lead?
why does it take catastrophe to start a revolution if we're so free?
tell me why, someone tell me why so many people bleed."

you have to love tick,tick... boom! or well some of the songs because they make so much sense now even though the songs were written in the early 90's. which quite some years back.
i'm staying here for the first year of university. i might go away after that. i know i need to get out of here because in 10 years more than 50% of NL population will be seniors. i don't want an occupation with seniors so i think i'm going some place else if i can. next year will be an interesting year though. i'm interesting in who i will see and who i won't. i have an idea already but that might change. no one can plan ahead, things happen a second at a time. take it and run with it as fast as you can because you might lose it as fast as you get it. that's possibly meant nothing, but to me it meant something. i've come to see that people change whether we like it or not. people get sick whether we like it or not. we can't change anything from starting but we can try our best, once we know, to change something. sometimes though, it's out of our hands. let fate take care of it? i'm not sure if i believe in fate. i might, i might not. i'm in the middle. but that's enough of this jibberish, ta ta!